Sunday, December 28, 2003
okay. I'm gonna change my blog! haha it will be http://passion-propaganda.blogspot.com. so re-link me peeps!
the dead one, 08:09.
Thursday, December 25, 2003
yeah. after this season, the hols are gonna be over and I'm gonna be back in school. I havent done much for enjoyment, but I've certainly given myself time to dwell in muh misery and grow out of it. the first step was scorching, but I made it anw. certainly, there were countless times when I'll fall back, but it doesnt stall me for very long anymore. now that I'm ready, I've made decisions to allow myself to change. there's no turning back in time and I wont get a second chance to live my past. might as well live for the present and future, right?
now, I'm so much more confident and independant on my own. and I've become more dependant on God of cos. it is happenin' for good. it wouldnt mean that I'll ever stop giving, if I say that I'm detaching myself from my circle of friends. we're all individuals anw. we do not depend on each other in every aspect of life.
oh wells. merry merry christmas! :)
set free.
the dead one, 07:05.
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
I love jenifer so much! she's such a pie yah? :) *hugs jen!* I'm still in awe of every event and thing! it's more or less confirmed that I'll be in 3F next yr, thus, I'm gonna be with all my khakis! haha I cant wait to spend the next 2 yrs with all of them, jumping over hurdles and such. jen's really happy too! yupp.
then, I'm really thankful for the prez she got me. there's this huge box, and she bought: 4 packs of sweets, a soft toy, a stand and THAT baby hymns cd! omagawwsh. it's soo sweet okay. *1000 x kisses* lol she looked fabulous tonight, btw. wahaha cos she was wearing green! haha yeah, that's my new fave colour yah? sheesh. think it's because people have been complimenting on how good I look in green. blah! :P okay, we got madd also. hehe we're like talkin' nonsense throughout! when we went for our jalan jalan, we're like blowing muacks to each other frm "square" to "square". hee! those people would prollie have thought we're lesses. *cringes* yucks. wahaha!
alright, I better get going now. gotta meet zel at 9.50am and then at 11am, I gotta meet jo. hee! busy day. after that, I'm gonna have carolling in church till midnight mass ends.
I've finally learnt howda cherish what I have and what's granted unto me. Jesus loves me!
the dead one, 08:43.
Monday, December 22, 2003
yikes! been blogging so much nonsense yesterday. waha! -stomach growls- blah. anw, I felt kinda foolish when I realized that __ could be lying. and I thought to myself, "why should I even waste muh time on a liar?". yeah, I wont let it get me down this time. I'm starting to understand certain advices jie had told me through the course of the yr. (well, prollie just one in particular.) that is, I shouldnt be too attached to anybody. I'm certain that I'm not doing this outta self-defence, but doing it to live my life happier. seriously, being gleeful can help spread joy, comfort and love. like how ann does it every weekend at choir. (>.<) hehe!
"this is a good change, and this change will lead me to a good life."
-- book of genevieve's nonsense 1:1
lol
yupp and I'm going off to school soon to paint another flag and somemore tags! sheesh mann. I hate school camps! (only because chow organises them. yuck.) yeah anw, I still pray that there'll be no changes in the swopping of classes. *prays* I really wanna be in the same class as jenifer, mandy, fides, charmaine, natalie, rae, therese, peichi... etc! btw, is I'm not sure of who's in 3F... wonder if XJ is... anw, I love them all the same!
vroOom!
the dead one, 17:05.
omagawwsh. this is my third entry of the day! but I gotta blog now. wahaha I maybe in 3F next yr! I'm not gonna elaborate on how I got to know abt it, but I am so so glad okay! haha crab and I were screaming and squealing over the phone! sheesh. pls let this be true.
bounces off.
the dead one, 06:32.
HOW EMBARRSSSING!!! wah lao... he didnt tell me can? now, I'm gonna be known as the paverlogical f****! sigh... what's wrong with muh head? lol this is darn farnie...
the dead one, 01:35.
Sunday, December 21, 2003
okay. this is gonna contradict with the first paragraph of the previous entry. I woke up yesterday finding my heart so free and I knew that it was all over. yeah, it is. *exhales* but I think evil has found other means to make me fall into another deadly sin. sheesh. whatever you are, Jesus is with me. thus, I'll nvr follow your instructions. but now, I'm even too afraid to ask for God's help. I feel so unworthy of His Mercy because I hadn't held onto my faith. how?
on to another note, I've decided to set my feet into my new circle of friends already. it's prollie the best to allow myself to move away from the fallen rubbles. maybe it seems mean of me for not giving anyone a chance to change for the better. but I'm not taking any chances to let myself fall back on no support.
stronger now.
the dead one, 17:30.
