Chinese paper totally screwed up today! Woohoo... wow, that's nice! =S Sigh... ah well, can't help it... it's chinese!

Anw, heard that pnw screwed up last night and Maddie kinda blew... I don't wanna add in too much of it here cause I have yet to hear it from her perspective. But... frankly, I can expect what I will hear. And if I were there last night, I would have left millions of comments and qns leaving everybody in a daze. Wahaha... I seriously have alot to say about some people. But I just don't get the opportunity. I don't think a trashing-session would do any help either. It will definitely leave a scar on everyone... even though, we're suppose to trash and forget about it. It's impossible dude!.. We're all young adults and we've got at least another 60 years to live, if nth happens along the way. We learn something new everyday! Gotta bear that in mind. Some poeple learn more but some are plainly simple minded. Nobody is perfect. One must not doubt in another's believes and faith. If we do, it's just as good as criticizing another race or religion! *Ahem, ain't no talk on that yah?*

I guess this is the only place where I can speak my mind! I don't care what any of you may think... cause I just speak my mind. I have my perspectives and you have your's. It's an open-minded society. It's time to start accepting!
the dead one, 00:40.

Friday, May 09, 2003

It's just a day before my mid-year exams officially starts! Getting quite freaked out already... sheesh, it starts with chinese papers for the first time! And it seems like I'm not that prepared this time around rather than common test 2... I pray I do fine cause I don't wanna scew up. That's not an option btw.

Science was horrifying today! I can never be a gynae or even a surgeon. L.k.T showed us pictures and vids of abortion plus... notes, duh? Anw, I was utterly disgusted when I saw the pictures of the aborted foetuses! Omg... I almost cried when I saw that bloody-thing in the lab! I don't think Dyan could even have her recess... she was asking me how could I eat after seeing so many bloody-foetuses! Haha... that poor girl... ah well, L.k.T is so mad... he actually pretended to crawl like a foetus is it's mother's dreams! Omg... he's insane! Like the mad-scientist in the lab! Woohoo... well, Teo is worst, I tell ya. Seems like all the science teachers are ali'l phsychotic. =X Wahaha... we've even got a "Mr Bean"! Ah haa...

Ok, gtg now... PEACE!
the dead one, 00:46.

Thursday, May 08, 2003

Sigh... I can't concentrate on my last minute work for home econs! Waddahell... I started thinking about kor Anthony after watching "Growing Up" on tv. I never knew I'd miss him so much? I started thinking about the times he used to carry me in his arms when I fell asleep on the sofa. And when he beat me up when I did something wrong? I was always a paranoid when I was much younger. Esp before I went into Primary school. Anw, I started crying at the thought of him. Garry in the show reminds me so much of him ok! I don't know how! Ah well...

And I'm so stressed up today! Home econs just sucks my blood. No one who expects a wife who can sew and cook for him, should ever marry me. He's gonna regret. And btw, most guys would want that sorta wife but too bad, I'm the career-minded kinda person. I'm not homie, honez. Wahaha!

Ok, gotta try getting back to my work.
the dead one, 02:55.

Wednesday, May 07, 2003

Today ain't that bad... but I'm super di duper tired! Just got back from the pnw practice at big bro's. Quite alright... at least I had some freetime singing today. Other than that, I'm totally stressed! I missed lotssa revisions and I'm trying to catch up with it. Ok, no worries... I'm cool... and I can get things done when I'm on full-blast! But right now... I'm just so so shacked... I need a good night sleep. Tml will be another "project" day! Sigh... I might hafta bring fwd all my schedules. It always happens. Ah well... it sucks a whole lot but... I'M COOL. Wahaha!!

Have been really possitive lately. Which is a good sign! Anw, people who are reading this... pls download "On My Own" by Whitney Housten. She's fantastic! I've posted the lyrics on my previous post. =)
the dead one, 08:26.

Tuesday, May 06, 2003

Oh man... I just did my art research and I have 10 sketches to go! Sigh... art sucks. I pray I wouldnt end up in an art class cause that'll be the worse thing that could ever happen to me! 10 sketches is a whole lot for me... plus. I'm gonna have chinese spelling quiz tml. I don't know how am I gonna fare in it man... there are more than a 100 words! I'm gonna die studying...

Oh well, whatever it is... today, i've been feeling so so restless! My muscles are achin' and my bones are crackin'! It must have been p.f.t yesterday. And after all that excercise, I think I over-fed myself?! Wahaha... I had about... 3 dinners last night! Can you imagine? Haha... ah well, chatting with Gerri K at the moment. We're like sharing stuff... like, I don't know what genre of small-talks are we having now... and I don't know how we got here! Wahaha... but surely it's fun talkin' to her. =)

Marc was telling me just now about... [him]. And... well, I guess I'm just so deprived of hanging out these days... so much so that I was so tempted by [him] to get out with him. Ah well, it's nthmore than that! *Phew!* Wahaha... I thought... ... ... ARGH!! Haha... I better shut my mouth. Oops? =P You guys shouldn't know too mcuh dearies... haha!

Ok, that's all about me for today... gonna post another set of lyrics...

Here it is:

Bad news... that [bimbo] got her post back! Like, what the hell? Ok, maybe I shouldn't over-react so much... maybe she's changed! Well, she has... but what's more impt is that she's changed her attitude towards me. I ain't gonna tolerate no more. I thought I could get through this post without anymore disturbance and here comes another hurdle that I hope I can leap! She behaved like she hated the post so much when we were called to get out of the class so that the rest could vote. She kept saying, "why does servos still want me to get out when she has already made up her mind on both of you?" she was obviously hinting that she's better and chances are, poeple will still vote for her! And well, she was right! Argh... I hate that!

Anw, apart from all that... she ain't gonna get in my way and get me all upset again... I've learnt to be stronger and tougher! I'm a fighter momma! That's right! Wahaha... so crappy... talking to myself... trying to get myself to look at a optimistic perspective. Wow. And I think I did a great job! Wahaha... geez... well, being bhb runs in the family blood!

Other than that, I've got tonnes of work ta do.



the dead one, 03:12.

Sunday, May 04, 2003

The day is ending in like prolly 2 hours? Sigh... it's been quite relaxing and I did alittle of my revision. Man... I've not completed some of my homework and it's killing me! Esp art and home econs... it's just not my kinda thing to do! Oh well... I'll hafta tryda complete everything by this coming week. And Saturday will be my Chinese paper 1 and 2. Had been really slacky today... sigh... must be the laughs on friday night that made me so restless. Bad choice... should have just laid low. But knwoing myself, I can never keep my ass on the seat with so many people around. Esp when I have like so many people to talk to and getting to know new people like, Geraldine! Haha... ok, I'm NOT in-love with her. So somebody, no worries ok? =P

Ok, feeling restless tonight... what's been on my mind is someone so least expected! I dont wanna mention his name or whatsoever... cause I know whoever's gonna read this is gonna suan me like mad! Thnx guys... but I simply know you all too well. Wahaha! Well, I'm so blur now... and I need a break! Prolly gonna read a book before going to bed. Peace humanS.