Friday, June 06, 2003
YAY!!! Finally the holidays are here. Now, I can do whatever I wanna do at my own speed! That's what I like about holidays... no deadlines to meet... haha other than the last day of the hols duh? I went to watch "Bruce ALMIGHTY" tadae with Matong and Ng Zhu! Hehe I really enjoyed their company! Love ya both! =) The show was really funny... except, it didn't really have a climax. It's got lotssa biblical stuff in there? Haha... imagine... Jim Carrey as god... wahaha! So cute ok... everyone's gotta watch it! Lalala... intercession kinda screwed up... but I dont wanna get too upset because it's just how we pray... we dont have to be perfect cuz God made us... and we're flawless at His sight! Yeah! Haha... makin' sense? I think I am... hehe! -WiNkz-
Suddenly, my impression of Eunice changed. Realized that even though she's VERY childish (ok, that's so mean), right I'll say child-like, she's really got a BIG HEART! Not literally... but I can see how much she feels for another... ya know, for the past 2 days sitting with her, despite all the sarcasm and showing obvious dislike towards her, she still congratulated me for my results! It's like... she was even more happy than I was! Really... she pratically told everyone my results... sheesh! Haha... she was so so excited! I dont know why... really... but her enthusiasm really moved me to the core! I really feel like writing a card to her and apollogizing... man!!!
[paradoxical joyer - PANDA]
the dead one, 10:30.
Thursday, June 05, 2003
Here's a new song I composed! First time posting my song on bloggie... hehe this is so exciting! Haha lame... anw, do post your views yah? *Blush* ok, here's goes:
Verse:
You set my heart at ease
When hurdles surround me
You bring Hope into my vision
And never let me fall
Maybe life isn’t so dull
If I walk in Your light
So tell me what to do
Cause my heart has a place for You
Chorus:
Let me be
Your instrument of love
Teach me to use
The hands ya gave to me
Let me walk
In the blindness of your love
Let me be
Your instrument of love
Verse:
When someone lost her way
I will bring her back to You
Let me be Your angel
That’s been sent down to Earth
Let me ever walk in love
And never stray away
So give Your word today
Cause I’m standing here for You
the dead one, 03:59.
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
"The weather was a killer..." Wahaha... sounds familiar or what? Oh man, it's so hot everyday! All of us will be roast like ducks one of these days. I dont wanna die looking like a roast duck! Haha... talk nonsense... bleargh! Anw, I kinda betrayed some people today... and I think I half-lied. Damn, am I a liar. I feel so selfish for only doing it for the sake of "saving" my close-friends. But at the same time, if they found out that I was the one who told their secrets, they'll despise me! *Sobs* I didn't tell the others' partially because I was afraid and unsure. And also, I didnt really bothered. Why!? It's so hard... I think I should love them all equally and tell all of it. My stomach keeps churning each time I think of it. =S
Unscientific Answers
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't Love, it's Like.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't Love, it's Lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't Love, it's Luck.
Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.
Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't Love, it's Loyalty.
Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't Love, it's Pity.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't Love, it's being Unconfident.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn't Love, it's Friendship.
Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
It isn't Love, it's a Lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn't Love, it's Charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's Love.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's Love.
Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's Love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's Love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's Love.
But do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you?
Then it's Love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then it's Love.
Now, if Love is painful, and tortures us so,
why do we Love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
Because it's...
Love
[paradoxical joyer - PANDA]
the dead one, 07:18.
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
I'm shacked! *Slumps on my chair* I just can't wait for the holidays to start! At least, I can get more rest. Everyone's calling me a panda now. Haha how nice! Best of all, Jo called me a Tara Panda. He said I look like one... oh man! Shoot me! *Bish* So much work to get done ok... I still have my Chinese wb to complete... and what time is it now man? Sigh... forget it, do it during his lessons tml. I pray the girl sitting next to me will start studying as well. She thinks Diligence is the "best" class? Omg... and she tells me the lamest things. She turned around and told me "the earth is round?" Like oh dear me! I'm not dispising anyone from "D"... but I wouldnt wanna be in an arts class... even though it sounds classy. I'd rather be in a nerdy-science class. Well, at least I know i'm getting somewhere. Got back all my papers today! Yay! I passed all... hopefully my ct scores will pull my overall higher... keepin' fingers crossed! I wanted to post vocab here... but then again, I am running outta time! Will do that maybe tml or another day. =S I'm hungry...
[paradoxical joyer - PANDA]
the dead one, 08:45.
Monday, June 02, 2003
I Think I'm In Love by Jessica Simpson
Everytime you're near baby
I get kinda crazy in my head for you
I don't know what to do
And oh baby
I get kinda shaky when they mention you
I just lose my cool
My friends tell me
Somethin has come over me
And I think I know what it is
I think I'm in love
Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
In love, boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you
Just the other night baby, I saw you hangin
You were with your crew
I was with mine too
You took me by surprise
When you turn and look me in my eyes
Boy you really blow my mind
I don't know what's gotten into me
But, God, I think I know what it is
In love, boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you
I think I'm in love
Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes with you
Somethin strange has come over me
Got me goin out of my mind
Never met a guy like you before
You make me feel special inside
I think I'm in love
I think I'm in love
Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
I think I'm in love
Boy I think I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you
Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you (goin outta my mind)
I think I'm in love
Boy I think I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you
Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
I think I'm in love
Boy I think I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you
(repeat til fade)
[living in a paradoxical love and joy]
Guys just think they feel the most and they give the most. What about us, girls?! We're not as cold as we seem! Guys just dont understand... or rather, they just dont btoher to understand!
the dead one, 07:12.
