Saturday, July 12, 2003
sings: I stand, I stand in awe of You...
man, cant get that outta my head! haha... well, I was at fits tonight to "witness" the last meet. how sappy can it be? after all the good songs during the pnw, they sat down for a discussion. apparently, they're all gonna split up to different ministries, I think? if YIG were to have the same scenario, I think i'll break into tears boy! hmm... well, too early to say though. there was this guy who gave a speech about his lack of faith and he cried! that was like the saddest part of the entire session. I almost cried with him! sheesh... how emotional can I get? once again, I got to know a few more people better. met wilfred and he was taking pixes of everyone everywhere?! haha farnie chap. oh well, heard that fits is splitting up. I dont know how everything is, but I think it was quite a piece of devasting news. during the meet, there was this guy that was SOO rude to faye. like whoa! she was just askin... and he had to sound like she's askin a dumb qns. blah... whatever... think that's the only guy who gave me a very bad impression on him. the ohers were kinda pleasant. =) yupx... that's about it...
the dead one, 09:51.
Friday, July 11, 2003
been lookin' fwd to this "family reunion". I guess I've missed them all and such that, I've been aniticipating for this night to come for so long. the house has changed quite abit. without the sewing machine, my belongings and the familiar smell that had always been there when mama was still around. well, not so much about getting sentimental tonight... I met another niece, she's already 21 yrs old! haha we always thought we're distant cousins or smth? yup... met her at mama's funeral too! and we're like lookin at each other, wondering who that person staring back was. how silly! she could recognize me... man! and she rmbrs that she use to make me sit on her lap! =P lalalalala... horse ride! wahaha that was so long ago... and I think I'm taller than her now? shucks! no more horse rides... blah... anw, I wonder who can give me horse rides. lol back to her: caught up with her for awhile and I got to know that she only got a education to sec4. not because she didnt want to carry on with her studies. but more of a medical reason. she has got epilepsy, so she went out to work at different fast food centres after her sec4 graduation. sigh, she has this HUGE thing for kids. she reEeEeEeEaAaAlliIiIiIeE lurve them so much! but she can't teach in a childcare cuz she isnt qualified for it. SOO sad for her.... ... ... despite all that misfortune, she appears to be happy and contented with everything she has now. God MUST have been whispering into her ears all comforts! and betcha she counts her blessings! =) PTL! PTL! PTL!
the dead one, 10:05.
Thursday, July 10, 2003
quite a fruitful day. did clarification for math with maddie today. was kinda confused at first, so I guess I'll need more practices! =) laughed alot though. dont know what's been tickling me. tml is gonna be mama's 100th-day death ani. see how time flies. I can still rmbr the days and nights of the wake. how michael and I began to talk to each other. how my other cousins comforted me. guess it really brought the family closer. it's gonna be a friday night and it's really a good time for me to start concentrating on certain subbies' rev.
just had a short chatty with faye. and I sent her our pix! haha she liked it alot, I think? jie liked it too! bleargh... so spastic!... oh man, my back is achin' like hell. it's gonna be an Xtra long day tml cuz I gotta stay back for Xtra geog lessons... well, apparently the whole class have to?! so yah, gotta just leave it here. ciaoZzZzZz...
the dead one, 08:43.
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
during recess, I was hanging with gfs and saw somebody sobbing at the minibar. suddenly it dawned me that it was wwt! she looked SOO upset. and I dont know what moved me over to her and ask what happened. she merely shook her head at first and mumbled between her sobs, "I'm so sick..." ya know, it really worried me to hear that. so I kept on probbing till she told me the reason behind her tears. I hugged her and talked to her for ali'l while just before the chime went. haha well, I guess the listening ear on me did more help than the spastic stuff I said! blah... was telling her that chocs are like ecstacy and how it works on me? lol nonsensical nonsense. oh yah, told her some other optimistic perspectives to look at too. reminded her about stuff. haa, it's amazing how that few minutes could dry her tears and make her laugh. I'm really sure Jesus was just next to me, whispering all the comforting words that I told her. EXCEPT, the part about chocs. lol.
peace~~~
the dead one, 01:29.
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
EDITED:
it's been a long day and it wasn't exactly fruitful. hadda rush back home to grab the hypj and back to school before arman leaves. sigh, totally screwed. couldnt face up to hypj grp members this morning and I started crying while explaining to them. wtf? thank gawd all that all these pjs are OVER! gotta now concentrate on ct3 and the last elpj. it just started off really bad.
zelll* prolly perked me up when we went on our "date"! -WiNkX- we practically ba zhan the fitting rooms at Miss Selfridge can? haha she tried on millions of pieces of clothes! she got a pink top and I got myself ANOTHER skirt. haha seems like I'm on a skirt keraze aye? but I hardly wear them though.... so what's the point of buying? huh, I have absolutely no idea. ah well, I really lurve the skirt. it's rather short... so I'll prolly wear it when I'm not going to church. oh, but I think that's where I go most often aye? hmm... haha! ah well, as long as I like it. zelll* thinks that it looks like a tennis skirt! bleargh... it's not la... aiyo! =) and yah, that girl arh... tsk tsk talk also can zao xia! plus, we were super hyper. I was so kerazzy to pretend to fly in the rain! haha then was like running around the place with arms stretched! *blushes* yah and I came up with the bloody idea to face up our palms and see how much rain we can collect. *bish* someone shoot me! wahaha gee... what's happenin' man? zelll* was like goin' insane when she was climbing up the stairs! haha very thing on her was dropping off... even her belt... bleargh! so fun...
sigh, ct3 is cmg closer. really need to get myself together and work hard. I mug for NO ONE but MYSELF.
the dead one, 08:39.
Sunday, July 06, 2003
*whew* half a day has already passed and I have only managed to complete one proposal. during the process of it, so many ideas + my regrets + my worries + distractions flooded in my head. I felt like I've not done to my fullest. I dont know what to do since I've already come so far with the ideas we've brainstormed. got the urge to redo everything again. then again, I know those peeps wouldnt wanna do it. they're getting too sick of projects. and so am I. blame it on me, I can't multitask my hw and projects. that's why I didnt start on them earlier. and now, this is really getting me frustrated!
worries in my head:
common test 3 (which is just NEXT week)
art
d&t project (it's crap)
arman's lesson tml (I have no idea if he'd blow up because I only found 3 sets of worksheets, the class couldnt get their hw)
servos's lesson (the draft 1 is screwed up shit)
freeman's lesson (I left my book in school)
whatever else I can think of. bleargh! chatted with moses and geri earlier this afternoon and we were talking about getting into VJ. well, got a good news from moses. he told me that the trip from amk to VJ in the morning is less than 30 min! lalalalalala... but I gotta screwed my ass to get in there. anw, I've got my streaming to worry about first. still can't get over the fact that I may not be going to pure science. I'm gonna mug for my ps now.
ciao ciao ciao~
the dead one, 23:13.
SO SIAN...
haha wth? david kept saying that eversince we met up! yah, and his friend, chris came along. woke up exactly at 10.30am so I didnt go for cat class. whoof! ended up going for IJTP carnival and watching "dumb and dumberer". so sian... wahaha! esp the movie. argh gee it gets lamer by the minute I tell ya. met quite a number of people. bingx, estee, sherri and lots more! missed bingx so much man... sigh... and she had to say she was too busy to tag on my chaterbox! how sad... oh well... btw, the biggest jerk in the world added me into his contacts... fuckin bastard!
the dead one, 07:31.
