once again, I find myself competing with her. and to a certain extent, I think it's got a good outcome. it's prollie gonna help me move on much faster. and there's an inner voice telling me that "I wanna beat her hands down" both academically and in other aspects in life. although coming to think of it, no, I will nvr win. I gotta make it for myself instead of comparin with her. infact, I've been there before. thinkin' that she's all that I see and hear, then I tryda make myself ____ number 2. I'm not gonna lose myself all over again, now that I'm on the right path.
the dead one, 22:11.

yes. I'm moving on indeed. it's hurting me alot but I'm persistant. I will keep myself occupied and set my feet into my new circle of friends 'cos if anyone who loves me, would want me to be happy.

:)

spent my day travelling around for friends. hee. went to help maddie with the outlines in the early afternn. (I hope I helped alil'.) I tried to start conversations several times. but nobody answered! haa. they prollie didnt hear me. julie found it soo amusing anw. haha that cute girl. she gave me a xmas mole can? haha kerazzy. then went to bishan to meet jen. that farnie girl! we're loitering arnd j8 like idiots, waiting for the staff at giordano to find her altered-pants! oh mann. those people are soo unorganised. tsk tsk. and we bought materials to make xmas cards? haha yes yes, I shopped AGAIN. yipee! haa. gonna be soo broke, soo soon. *slaps forehead* nvm.

actually, I am already short of keching to complete my xmas list! uh oh. I'm in trouble! blah. doesnt it always happen to me? hehe wht's new? nvm. I'm saving alil' on myself so that I can clear the list. yeah then I'll prolly go sakae with jen on the 23rd. (msg to da crab: I want country mana dear! how? another time kay? hee.) yupp. I am savin' up. wow. I'm actually spending quite alot on unnecessary stuff. like: bands for hair and coin pouch. haa! yah yah. I'm a spendthrift. guilty!

I'm feeling rweally bored and hungry now. lemmi go think of what I can do at this hour. hee.
the dead one, 08:24.

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

steps arent getting any easier to take. it's like, losing it all at once, for now.
the dead one, 06:47.

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

tuKe says:
haha
tuKe says:
sorry about just now
brave girl says:
YO MOMMA GOOS!!!
brave girl says:

tuKe says:
had to clear some stuff for them
tuKe says:
hahahah
brave girl says:
I'm no goos, you goos!
brave girl says:

tuKe says:
hahaha
tuKe says:
u goos...
brave girl says:
I'm no goos!!!
brave girl says:

tuKe says:
wanna bet??!!
brave girl says:
bet lah!
brave girl says:
you dont know what's a GOOS anw
brave girl says:

brave girl says:
I'm not a goos
brave girl says:
you goos!!!
brave girl says:

brave girl says:
momma goos!!!
tuKe says:
hahaha
tuKe says:
ok lor
tuKe says:
win liao lor
brave girl says:

brave girl says:
of cos mann
brave girl says:
I bought this notebook that writes "ZEN" on it
brave girl says:
hee
brave girl says:
nic3e right?
brave girl says:
will show it to ya when we meet!
brave girl says:

tuKe says:
haha
tuKe says:
you zennish girl!!
brave girl says:
haha!
brave girl says:
yeah yeah
brave girl says:

brave girl says:
better than you, goos!!!!
brave girl says:

brave girl says:
lol
brave girl says:
I'm soo getting the kick of teasing you leh
brave girl says:

brave girl says:
you're soo teasable!
tuKe says:
i have limitsyar
brave girl says:
yes yes
brave girl says:
I know!!!
brave girl says:
whatcha doin' yah?
tuKe says:
cuttin' pictures
tuKe says:
hahaha
brave girl says:
huh?
brave girl says:
making another file?
tuKe says:
nah
tuKe says:
have this namecard holder
tuKe says:
so cutting some pics to put inside
brave girl says:
oh right
brave girl says:
got cut mine or not?!
brave girl says:
wahahaha
tuKe says:
haha
brave girl says:
must put mine inside!
tuKe says:
dun have many with u leh
tuKe says:
only have that airport one
tuKe says:
will take another nicer one with u then i put
brave girl says:
haha!
brave girl says:
OKAY!!!
brave girl says:
aye aye anw
brave girl says:
have any plans for xmas?
tuKe says:
nay... prolly go for mass
brave girl says:
and then?
tuKe says:
and then
tuKe says:
haha
tuKe says:
that's itlor
tuKe says:
this year xmas a bit quieter
tuKe says:
y?
brave girl says:
ahh I'M BORED!
brave girl says:
I wanna do smth
tuKe says:
like?
brave girl says:
dont know
brave girl says:
bish!
brave girl says:
I'm gonna make someone hold a stay over
tuKe says:
hahahaha
tuKe says:
interestin'
brave girl says:
yupp
tuKe says:
so what did you do today?
brave girl says:
I bought de notebook, glitter glue and listed out my xmas list
brave girl says:

tuKe says:

tuKe says:
nice
tuKe says:
i haven't gotten any presents
tuKe says:
haha
tuKe says:
i'm so dead
brave girl says:
me neither
brave girl says:
haha
brave girl says:
gonna start tmr
brave girl says:
argh
tuKe says:
haha
tuKe says:
me tmrw have to stay at home and wait
tuKe says:

tuKe says:
for the new comp
tuKe says:
so wil be busy setting up that slick thingie!!
brave girl says:
wahahahahhahahaa
brave girl says:
aiya
brave girl says:
how?!
brave girl says:
xmas!!!
brave girl says:
I rweally dont wanna stay at home
brave girl says:
do you wanna do smth with me?
brave girl says:
or you wanna stay home and have a peaseful xmas?
tuKe says:
xmas ar...
brave girl says:
eve
tuKe says:
was kinda thinkin' of a peaceful one this year dear
brave girl says:
okay...
brave girl says:
then I go out with muh fwens
brave girl says:
if anyone wansta keep hyper-me company
tuKe says:
yep!! go enjoy!!
tuKe says:
hahaha
tuKe says:
if you're hyper
tuKe says:
why not??!!
brave girl says:
yah mann
brave girl says:
but abit guilty lah
tuKe says:
eh?
brave girl says:
like, I'm not home with mummy
tuKe says:
... yea.. that's true oso
brave girl says:
yah
brave girl says:
aiya, see how
brave girl says:
asking gabe if we can do anythin
tuKe says:

brave girl says:
like go out with people from sac
tuKe says:
st anne's u mean?
tuKe says:
whahaha
brave girl says:
yupp
tuKe says:
haha
tuKe says:
ok
tuKe says:
this time i am quite smart
brave girl says:
huh?
brave girl says:
oh
brave girl says:
you got it correct
brave girl says:
wahahahahaha
brave girl says:

tuKe says:
hahahaha duh?!!
tuKe says:
you goos!!
brave girl says:
blah
brave girl says:
you're the only goos here, goos!
brave girl says:

tuKe says:
hahaha yea right goos!!
tuKe says:
your blood is runnin' deep in my veins.. so if i'm one, u're one too u lil goos!!
brave girl says:
ahhh!!!
brave girl says:
then everybody's GOOS, you goos!
brave girl says:

tuKe says:
why?!!
lil' goos says:
cos your momma and dodda are goos too!
tuKe says:
whahahahha!!!
tuKe says:
that'll be great then!
lil' goos says:
and everybody else are goos!
tuKe says:
a family of goos!!
lil' goos says:
lol
lil' goos says:
*we dont even know what goos are*
lil' goos says:

lil' goos says:
just made it up goos!
tuKe says:
whahahahahahahah;;;
tuKe says:
thanks to your teasin'
tuKe says:
we now have a new word to intro to everyone
tuKe says:

tuKe says:
goos.
lil' goos says:
haha!
lil' goos says:
pls...
lil' goos says:
it was you okay!
tuKe says:
hahaha yea
lil' goos says:
you kept typing the WRONG word!
tuKe says:
but it was your constant teasin' that made up!!
lil' goos says:
haha I dont know why lah
lil' goos says:
but I just lurve calling you goos
lil' goos says:
it's gonna be your new nickname
lil' goos says:

tuKe says:
haha
lil' goos says:
okay, goos?
tuKe says:
no lor
lil' goos says:

tuKe says:

lil' goos says:
lol
lil' goos says:
YES!
tuKe says:
NO!!
tuKe says:
hahahahaha
lil' goos says:
yes, pweash?
lil' goos says:

tuKe says:
whahahahaha....
tuKe says:

lil' goos says:
lol
lil' goos says:
OKAY!
lil' goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
happy??!!
lil' goos says:
lol yay!
lil' goos says:
get rid of tuke mann
lil' goos says:
BIGGIE GOOS!!
lil' goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
lil' goos says:
I'm little goos
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
i like tuke
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
i wanna remain as tuke
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
lil' goos says:
and nelly will be brother goos
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahaha
lil' goos says:
lol
lil' goos says:
lol
lil' goos says:
must tell him
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
nellie will be "kenai -- brother goos"
lil' goos says:
yeah man!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahahahah
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
super kewl
lil' goos says:
haha of cos!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahah!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
i am nellie's koda!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'M KODA!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
and u are my koda!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
see
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
Koda + lil' Goos says:
OKAY!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
there's a whole lot of mess.
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
hehehehehe
Koda + lil' Goos says:
who cares?
Koda + lil' Goos says:
we're messy people anw
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
surely leh!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
you piece of poo!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'M NO POO, YOU GOOS!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahah yea right!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
of cos I'm right!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
YOU POO POO GOOS!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
YOU GOOS POO POO!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
wahahahahahhaha SURELY LEH!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
are you gonna say LEH SURELY?!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahahaha!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
lol
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
Koda + lil' Goos says:
leh surely!!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
wah thanks
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
and we have lah hor?!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
hor lah!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahahahahahahahahahaha.... are you mad??
Koda + lil' Goos says:
no!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
have u gone insane?!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
no!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
WE ARE MAD!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
YES!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
EH
Koda + lil' Goos says:
WE HAVE GONE INSANE!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
NO!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
U ARE MAD!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
hahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'm not mad
Koda + lil' Goos says:
just abit crazy
Koda + lil' Goos says:
it's really mild
Koda + lil' Goos says:
but you?!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
wat?!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
you've crossed the limit
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
how dare u?!!!!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
you piece of poops!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
how dare me?
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
what crap!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
how dare you!!!!!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
poops!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahahahahahahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'm no poops, goos!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
goos poo poo................
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
............
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
gosh
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
at the rate we're going
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahhaa
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
tmrw i no need to help my mom in the mornin' liao
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
need to hit the sack like real soon
Koda + lil' Goos says:
wahahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
me too
Koda + lil' Goos says:
gonna swim tmr with jenifer
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
wah
Koda + lil' Goos says:
and grab things for you and the others!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haha
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
have fun with her girl
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
say hi to her for me yar
Koda + lil' Goos says:
hehe will
Koda + lil' Goos says:
okay!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
will introduce you guys online one day
Koda + lil' Goos says:
she doesnt come online very often
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
oh right
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
GO GO and sleep you goos!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
yeah yeah goos poops
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
remember to blow bubble when u before u swim!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
huh?
Koda + lil' Goos says:
wahahahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
why didcha tell me that?
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
last time my swimming instructor would go like "blow bubble.. blow bubble.." everytime he starts his lesson
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol MINE TOO!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
wah lao
Koda + lil' Goos says:
you're soo crappy mann
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
why?
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
u dun rike ar?
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
ok lor
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
go back to not being crappy la!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
suddenly think of what your coach said
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
i can take it wan
Koda + lil' Goos says:
wahahahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
NO!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
you better stay crappy
Koda + lil' Goos says:
FOREVER!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
there will be days of sadness ler
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
have to thank maddie actually
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
talkin' to her really helps
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
hee
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
helped rather
Koda + lil' Goos says:
okay...
Koda + lil' Goos says:
well, see!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
going out with her wasnt soo bad right?
Koda + lil' Goos says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
yea
Koda + lil' Goos says:
nessa wansta see you btw
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
dada worked in super amazing ways la
Koda + lil' Goos says:
so get your butt down at sfx real soon kay?
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
tell her i will see her prolly on 27th
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
okay!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
will go for 4th saturday
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I know!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I will go too!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
yea babehz
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahaha !
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haha nice
Koda + lil' Goos says:
havent been there for a very long time
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
yea
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
talk about LONG!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
haha~
Koda + lil' Goos says:
yeah yeah
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I know you havent been at sfx for longer than I am!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahahaha duh!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
mann
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I feel like doing all the xmas gifts now leh
Koda + lil' Goos says:
abit not kerazzy
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
go do lor
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I cant slp at the rate i'm going
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
you better do so
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
i wanna go sleep in about 10 more min
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
having a great chat with iNdy's friend now
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
oh?
Koda + lil' Goos says:
wahahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
yea...
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
and a very crappy chat wif me!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
now...
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha super lor
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
you better save this chat you goos!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
Koda + lil' Goos says:
yeah I will loh
Koda + lil' Goos says:
will post this mann
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
wat??!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
YOU SHOULD TOO!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
make everyone go kerazzy like us
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahahaha no la
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
they won't go kerazzy just liddat lor
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I wanna POST!!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
NO!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
YES!!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
NO!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
you didnt say...
Koda + lil' Goos says:
ahem stuff
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'm not gonna flaw this thing
Koda + lil' Goos says:
wahahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'm gonna post it
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
huh?
Koda + lil' Goos says:
everyone
Koda + lil' Goos says:
everyone's gonna go blind reading it*
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
NO!!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haiz.. then again
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
doesn't really affect me wha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
what*
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
chey
Koda + lil' Goos says:
wahaha yeah
Koda + lil' Goos says:
cos you didnt say anything abt the special concert by me
Koda + lil' Goos says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
*still not gonna flaw this thing*
Koda + lil' Goos says:
hehehehehe
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
lalalalala
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
*zips*
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
Koda + lil' Goos says:
yah mann
Koda + lil' Goos says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
to the people readin this: ARE YOU LAUGHIN'?!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
U ARE MAD.
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
U ARE MAD
Koda + lil' Goos says:
they better laugh or I'll bust their butts
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'M NOT MAD
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'M NOT MADD
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
YEA RIGHT
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
YEA RIGHT
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
YEA RIGHT
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahahahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
LOL
Koda + lil' Goos says:
LOL
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'm trying to sing!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
STOP MAKING ME LAUGH YOU GOOS!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
TRYING??!!! you already NOE how to sing you GOOS!!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'M TRYING TO SING A SONG!!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
hahahahah
Koda + lil' Goos says:
I'M NOT LEARNING HOWDA SING, YOU GOOS!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
GO!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
SING.... SING A SONG.....
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
HAHAHAHAHA
Koda + lil' Goos says:
carnot adey lah
Koda + lil' Goos says:
wahahahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:
momma said, there'd be days like this. there'd be days like this, my momma said!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahahahaha
Koda + lil' Goos says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
goosie goosie
Koda + lil' Goos says:
GOOSIE MOMMA!
Koda + lil' Goos says:

Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
are you mad!!!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
haha that's not a qn right?
Koda + lil' Goos says:
no qn mark!
Koda + lil' Goos says:
haha then what's that?
Koda + lil' Goos says:
a statement?
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
no comments
Koda + lil' Goos says:
isnt it suppose to be "you are mad"???
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
Koda + lil' Goos says:
MAD!!!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
haha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
glad that u noe that
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
Koda + lil' Goos says:
lol
Koda + lil' Goos says:
*hypervantilating*
Koda + lil' Goos says:
toots!
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
whahahaha
tuKe -- biGGie g00s says:
siao

sings: I'm so happy! O so, happy!

hee. feelin' rweally mad taday! I just wanna have fun, fun, FUN! *grins*

finally witnessed another miracle by the BIG GUY. :) talking to HIM rweally helps alot, more than I could imagine.

sings: tell everybody I'm on way...
the dead one, 18:24.

Contacts +.warm fuzzies +.home +.archives

CRIBS +.matong +.nelly +.muriel +.GK- +.madeleine +.clarity +.yanni bizkit +.yo momma +.carmen +.daniel +.joy +.david +.charmaine +.monitor pea +.rina +.sherina +.jenifer +.nick +.toii +.jo +.zel +.XJ- +.yattie +.kim +.lotte +.beatrice +.dear ah bu +.aussie friend +.ace

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FlashWorks +.without you +.stickman

My Xmas List >THAT converse shoes >any Sting album >the latest Norah Jones album >green crucifix (accesories) >money >pleasant surprises >THAT adidas bag >THAT batman towel >black leather shoes >spongebob squarepants "stool"